Showing posts with label My Past Now and Future. Show all posts
Showing posts with label My Past Now and Future. Show all posts

Thursday, October 14, 2010

请别爱上我

有一种女孩,她有點懶,她不擅長做家務。
  
她獨立,也好強,她寧願忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不願意向別人提起。
  
但其實骨子裡,渴望有一個避風港灣,讓她去依靠。但她不會承認。
  
她必須確定那個人是否可以承受得了這一切的,承受她的撒嬌,她的無理取鬧,她的倔強,她的悲觀,她所有的性格缺陷且永遠不離不棄。
  
只有這樣,她才放心,可以放心去繼續做自己,不會害怕有一天將要面對失去。如果沒有,那麼她只好繼續寂寞和孤獨。
  
她對愛情沒有安全感,也不會給別人安全感。
  
她一定要對方先流露出對她有好感,她才散發她的熱情。她愛的永遠是對她最好的那個,那個好她心裡是有一個標準的,你的積分超過了那條線,她會愛上你,但大多數人沒超過線之前就離開了,或者超過了之後沒等她看到就離開了。
  
其實她要的並不多,她要的只是一個溫暖的家。對她來說太重要了,雖然在她們口中說出來的卻是:我不需要愛情。
  
當你緊張他的異性朋友,她會一面跟你說,他只是我的誰誰誰,卻一面偷偷在意你的感受。。。
  
對她們而言,唯一具備殺傷力的只有感情,感情如果受到挫折,要么毀了她們,要么成就了她們。從此更加漠然,專注於事業。
  
她分手後完全不會像其他座在人面前要死要活,她嬉笑怒鬧,變得更加開朗。在聽到朋友說有關他的話題時,從不刻意迴避,她適當參與,淡然微笑,她的表現總會遭人懷疑這段感情的深淺,而人群中只有那些知道背後情節的人才看見她背後的眼淚和努力。
  
她從來不會在情人面前大聲哭泣,除非她真的崩潰了。
  
即使在你愛著她的時候,她也會胡思亂想讓自己悲傷。
  
如果你看到她的眼淚,請相信這絕不是她在博取同情,這是她這樣一顆內心驕傲的女子不得己的場景。
  
她想對你負責,對她負責,對自己的過去和未來負責,但請你不要輕易給她承諾和誓言。她很難相信。
  
即使她很難相信,但她還是會選擇等待。
  
她的傷初始濃烈似酒,很快就會變為一杯水,卻讓水滲入生活成為點點滴滴.她選擇在其中淡定,在其中沉默和內傷。
  
她就是這樣,強勢,霸道,任性。。。
  
不會討人歡心,死要面子,她愛朋友多過你。
  
她最有保護欲,最沒有秘密。
  
最暴躁,最善變,最沒耐心,最衝動,最耐不住寂寞卻又喜歡假惺惺的讓自己一個人呆著。
  
有時候她又充滿陽光的氣息,愛笑愛說話,活蹦亂跳,可愛迷人。。
  
她很自私,只願意與人同甘,不願意讓別人跟她共苦。
  
她的家庭不一定很是富裕,但她都是習慣了養尊處優。
  
她喜歡熱鬧,總會成為聚會的焦點,前提是她想。
  
她也享受孤獨,會靜坐在一個人的房間聽著很傷感的音樂。
  
她也會一整天呆在房間裡心情壓抑低落,但第二天一早起來,又會輕輕鬆鬆的打理一切,慌慌忙忙的拽著大衣拎著包往外衝。
  
她習慣在人前表現的很堅強,一付大女子主義的模樣。
  
她會想,遇到真正懂她愛她寵她的人,她就一定就會很安靜,心甘情願的安靜下來,不煩,不鬧,按時吃飯按時睡覺,按時做一切能安心和他一起做的事情。
  
她從不輕言愛,她的愛很沉默,那並非是因為她缺少那份勇氣,在她的心裡有一道柵欄,那就是自尊。
  
她看得比生命更尊貴的自尊。
  
如果有一個這樣的女孩對你說她愛你,那就代表在她的心裡你的分量勝過了她的自尊。
  
你不了解她,不懂她的好,就別愛她。她會在真正愛她的人面前卸掉所有的盔甲和偽裝,做個幸福的小女人,她不要求你要做什麼,不會無理取鬧要你陪著她,她有自己的生活,她給你空間因為她也需要空間。
  
她也會幻想,在遇到真正的他時,會在他累的時候悄悄熬上點營養粥,然後說,看你這麼不辭勞累本姑娘心情又不錯犒勞犒勞你。
  
她在你面前永遠性感調皮,偶爾撒撒嬌,跟你玩陌生人的遊戲,在你的朋友面前從來大方得體,微笑的依偎在你身邊。
  
她不讓你給她買這買那,她會說,我啊,是大女人,不喜歡男人給我買單。。。但是心裡卻會為你私自買給她的禮物而暗自開心,因為女人覺得那是你的寵愛。
  
她在意的是你的心,你若真心,她必然實意。最起碼你得表現的真心,能讓她感覺得到。
  
她會經常冒出些新鮮的想法來調劑生活,她的多變有時會讓你不安。
  
終有一天,她的敏感在你的呵護下慢慢消失不見,她的倔強被你的保護軟化,她的偽裝在你面前被輕易識穿。。。
  
得到她,別驕傲,因為沒人可以吃定她。
  
只有懂她的人,才會得到她的好。
  
她有時是有些遲鈍的,在感情方面,但有時很敏感,因為她在乎。
  
她有時想,當她遇上生命中的那個人,會愛的多麼濃烈,她渴望那種不計後果的極致,然後在強烈的碰撞中享受那種心痛感。
  
所以,別愛這樣的女孩,她太偏激,太虛偽,太粗心,又太神經質,太難伺候,太不溫柔。。。
  
如果你沒勇氣,沒能力可以堅持愛她,就別愛她。
  
因為如果你會離開,她的心將會永遠冰封,再也不會為任何人打開。。。。。。

請別愛這樣的女孩,所以请别爱上我!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

照耀我的星星


我有生气你吗?如果是,那我有原谅你吗?没头绪,对于这件事的发生,算是我人生中的一大考验吧。其实我想得是我从来不觉得我做错,我只是觉得我自己做得不够好。没能让“他”拥有更美好的人生,这是我一直在弥补的失败,而且会一直弥补下去。对于你,我只是你生命中的过客。你把我教你,分享给你的爱,全给了她,幸福的过下去。 虽然你不爱我,不过我会学习更爱我自己,更爱你给我的“它”。他会是我生命的星星,照耀着我。


Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Encouragement



晴天,雨天或阴天都不会影响我对你的热诚。

请赐我力量,让我完成你给我的任务。

或许它不简单,或许是你的用心良苦。

我相信我会坚持到底。

因为我相信你会陪在我身旁,所以我不害怕。

谢谢你


Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

守护神

我是谁?

我是你的守护神

如何让你遇见我

在这美丽的时刻

为着

我已经在佛前求了五百年

求他让我们结一段尘缘

佛于是把我化作了一棵树

长在你必经的路旁

阳光下 慎重的

开满了花

朵朵都是我前世的盼望

当你走近 请你细听

那颤抖的叶 是我等待的热情

而当你无视的走过

在你身后落了一地的

朋友阿 那不是花瓣

是我凋零的心

(那么久了,其实我想告诉你,改变你不是我的责任,守护你才是我的责任。)

忙里偷闲

阿咯 ,每天都在写伤心的爱情。今天我们来一点不同的吧,换一换感觉。在现今的生活里,每個人 都有忙不完的任務. 家庭主妇有忙不完的家务,上班族有忙不完的工作,学生有忙不完的学业。难道说这样就不能有休闲时间吗?不是哦,其实午餐,晚餐和冲量的时间就是我们休闲的时间。如果我们要做我们爱做的东西就要学会忙里偷闲。什么叫做忙里偷闲呢?例如,我现在是一位大学生,最近学业超级多的呢!!怎么办!!?哈哈,就在这时候,每当我在吃晚餐时,我可以一边吃,一边享受戏剧。嗯,再给你们另一个例子吧。如果有男女朋友的人,我们又要顾及工作,又要顾及女朋友,很糟糕吧。在这时候你可以先专心的工作,到一段时间。当你觉得压力了,想休息一下。那么就休息一下吧,打给女朋友聊一聊,就能增进感情。但是可别讲那么久哦(p/s:当盖电话时也要想女友声明哦,你是很忙可是一有空第一就想的是她,可是请她谅解你不能讲那么久,记得哦,要用好的语气,别觉得要得到她的谅解是理所当然的,好吗?)不然工作做不完,被责备了,可会造成压力。对感情就会有反效果哦。*笑* 好了,我忙里偷闲完了。你们大家也要加油哦,别觉得压力,工作一点一点做就会完成的。拜~

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Forgiveness

Everybody makes mistake, and so i do.

I have make a greater mistake in my life that make me can't forgive myself. My silly and childish had hurt the one who love me the most. I hurt the one who had been love me and sacrifice to me, the one i love before, my family, my friends and my current lover too. After the incident, it let me feel the power of forgiveness. It gives hope to a person. We all do make mistakes and we learn from mistake; which call experience. My ex-boy friend has this principle in his life; "It is ok that you make mistake, it is stupid if you repeat it once more". (^.^) I don't know can say he is the one forgive me or i am the one forgive him. Some of my friend say i should have the dignity not to contact him anymore. Frankly speaking, i do appreciate the moment we are together. He makes me learn a lot of thing, makes me understand the reality of world, makes me to be independent, makes me stronger.

Thank you for your forgiveness. Dear all of you, sometimes i may hurt you because i am not perfect. I do make mistake. I will try my best to do whatever i can.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Drawing

What is my hobby? I have many hobbies.

However, my favourite hobby is drawing. Why? *smile*

I don't really know it. Just drawing can comfort me while i feel uneasy. During examination period, i feel stress. Then i don't think i can continue reading the reference book again, so i start to draw on my notes.

Tada~! This is my production.


Bluek!!! Sorry la, my drawing so so only because i never been a proper drawing class before. PLease forgive me ya..hahahaha...

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

SLR Training

Guess what! A picture tells a thousand words. Recently i start to learn how to snap photo by using SLR!


This is my shifu for teaching me to use SLR.



P/s* : Sorry ya, i cannot directly put up his face.



Reason 1.) he likes to create mysterious



Reason 2.) Later he want to collect his copy rights


Learning

Arggg... This picture is snap by Moniqa!!! She snap it while we are having class in TFC.

Cheers to the bride and bridegroom!

This is the recent photo i take from my god brother wedding. How was it ? ^^

Target:

Hopefully the coming time i can improve in my photography skill. It is because i wish to keep not only me but everybody's memory in the photo that taken by me.

Friday, July 25, 2008

I am lost

Today I watch 溏心风暴 got one scene is about a guy’s name is Alfred. After break up, he always writes his daily journal, he cannot let go his beloved girl friend. Suddenly every previous thing comes back to my mine, from January I start to write message to him, one day follow by one day, non stop. Until 100 messages. Too bad to say that he tell me he don’t receive any message. The guy in the drama series, Alfred say when a person is sad, what he want to do just write out the feeling. When I am sad I really have think about it. When I am sad, i feel that I want to have one person to care of me, accompany me. However no body can do it, I message to my friend “ I taught you are that person can accompany when I am down, lonely and sad but he told me he couldn’t make it . It’s because he has girl friend, his girl friend don’t like it. Apart from that, my roommate has told me, when a guy already has girl friend, they won’t have times and effort to console or comfort you. Last time I always feel I am very lucky, god always with me and help me. Now I don’t think that, I just thinking when I have problem, I need to learn to be strong and bear it. No body will care, no body can help, no body can even listen or understand. i tell my friend if one day he come back to me, i won’t together with him again. I don’t know why I don’t feel want to angry him. It’s funny to say that I have tried to angry him, I fail to do it. Hahaha, I can’t believe that I will try to angry a person. I am such a weirdo. For him, no angry, no happy but sad. I always think that I can forget him, treat him as a unimportant person or this person never appear in my life before. Unfortunately, I cannot make it. When I think back, my tear will drop automatically, cannot stop. While I am crying, i know that I cannot lie to myself I still miss him and love him very much. In his mind I am just a character can be forget and throw away. Everything that happened previously is it a dream? Our story is just exact same like the love story in movie or drama. Is all this just a fake to me? Who is him? I can’t recognize who is him now. What is reality? How’s human character? I am really tired of all this kind of thing. I want to cry! Cry and cry and cry until tired then sleep. My classmate told me that people have prejudice to me because I don’t even can manage my thing properly. I always try my best to do everything. May be I really cannot control what people say, maybe my life already not the same as other people, I don’t know what I do consider correct, what is my responsibility? I have no direction. I cannot protect myself, how I going to protect other people? How I going to make my family don’t worry about me? I am so tired now. May everything that happen before just a nightmare for me, after wake up then I will forget everything. Be tough, be happy, you can do it Wan Ting.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

I am polluted!!

Hahaha... people always will say the environment is polluted but today i want to tell everybody i am polluted because i have been bar before.

Date : 18-05-2008

Venue : The Cube


Noob is driving car.

Today is David birthday then Soo Lim gather some of his friends like Gek Li, Sze Min, Sze Min's bro, David's gf, Aaron and me celebrate his 20th birthday.Around 4-5pm, David drives car, fetch me, his gf and Soo Lim. We reach Soo Lim's house at 7.00 pm. That time he just after working, then we are waiting him for preparation. So slow~~~ hahaha.. David's gf cannot stand for it keep saying him. Soo Lim presents David a monkey key chain.





The green one is for Soo Lim and the purple one is for David. Soo Lim mention that the purple monkey looks noob so suitable for David.


After that, we go to Melaka Raya Secret Recipe take David's cake.On the way, David and David's gf keep halau-ing Soo Lim from car, make Soo Lim feel so frustrated and complain that they bully him. Hahaha..




This is David's birthday cake- Ice cream flavour


Then we are heading to friends Cafe. Muahahaha.. i order Friends Grill and Hot Apple Milk. This friends grill cannot be find in the new menu. I know this dish because of Han Siu. Yummy~~ it is so nice, egg, hush brown, black pepper chicken chop, tomato and vegetables are the best combination.



Friends Grill


We have a lot of fun there such as chatting, playing and taking photo. David always do something funny, that's why Soo Lim always call him as noob.









After that, Soo Lim come out one idea that go clubbing at The Cube. At that time David tease me say that my costume is not suitable for clubbing. I am wearing one short, T-shirt and slipper. Arg~~ i will never forget that because my 1st time clubbing wearing is so CASUAL. Before enter The Cube, they have to cop one The Cube Logo on our hand.




The Cop.


During clubbing, Soo Lim order 2 bucket of beer. Seriously speaking, i don't like beer. I can say in my 19+ years, i never drink beer before. On the day, i drink 1 bottle of 5% alcohol beer. Of course i am drunk, Gek Li drunk too.What is the feeling of drunk? David says when u are drunk, you feel you are floating.I have the feeling so it is proven i am drunk.Some more, I dare to step on the dance floor to dance, it's weird because i am wearing casual.


Saturday, April 12, 2008

New Hair Cut

Oh yeah~~~ Finally i get to cut my hair, I've been stand for 6 months didn't go for hair cut..Arggg.. My hair is very messy, can use "kusut masai" to describe myself. Do you know that hair can affect a person's appearance? Let's see the photo below.


Before- Look like ghost

After - Wow~

I use about 5 hours to make this hair because i am doing hair re bonding. However, my hair cut only spend only 5 minutes.Hahaha. This hair cut spend me RM180.00 *pocket got lubang d* Just because my blurriness, i ter-leave my earring there. Then i need to go and get back the next day.Yawn~~